??Predestined??

I know I am going to probably rouse some people on this subject but here it goes…..

As a "Christian Adoptee" I grew up hearing stuff like Everything happens for a reason, or God has a purpose for this, Be grateful for everything, and one of the ones I HATED hearing the most was God knew you before you were ever even created. He loves you you're His child blah, blah, blah.

Psalms 139:13-16
For you formed my inward parts; you wove me in my mother's womb. I will give thanks to You for I am fearfully and wonderfully made; wonderful are Your works, and my soul knows it very well. My frame was not hidden from You, when I was made in secret, and skillfully wrought in the depths of the earth; Your eyes have seen my unformed substance; and in Your book were all written the days that were ordained for me, when as yet there was not one of them.

YEAH RIGHT!!!!

Me, an abused discarded, unwanted kid..your trying to tell me that God knew that all this was going to happen to me before it happened???? Then why should I love this so called God, who would allow all this horrible junk to happen to me? If HE knows all why didn't HE stop it all from happening? Why was I separated from my birth family? I just did not understand all this stuff. I didn't know HOW to believe in much less love a God that could foresee my future and not intervene.

My new parents started taking me to church and I was in a private school and I started learning about this so called GOD…. The more I learned the more I liked… I learned that He had a Son, Jesus Christ who was like me.. hated by many. His own people turned their backs on Him as well but He kept on going. He didn't let that stop Him from His purpose in life.

Proverbs 22:6
Train up a child in the way he should go; even when he is old he will not depart from it.


The more I learned the more my hardened heart started to soften. I was still puzzled by so many things in life but I knew this one thing for sure I had to know more. I started to listen and study and even pray to God.. after all what harm could it do? I started to realize that it was not the will of God for BAD things to happen to me but that through the bad He could work on me and use me to touch and help others that have gone through what I had.

 I have come a very long way since those first scared days as a little girl. Back then if you would have said the word Predestination to me I would have looked at you like you were crazy!!! Now, I know that I know That God chose to use my unfortunate situation for His Glory.

 Romans 8:28 
And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love Him, who have been called according to His purpose.

 To sum it up, I do not believe God made or allowed anything bad to happen to me, bad things happen to good people all the time. I do however, believe that The God I serve will have the Last Word!!! Thank You Lord for hand picking my awesome parents!!!!